"Seemingly nonchalant, yet I’m just numb - eyes darting in every direction, searching for some object with no name, when in reality I’m simply looking desperately for that moment of mental clarity as if my life depends on it - and ironically enough, it does. Every moment is not a blessing, but rather a miracle that the wheels in my head don’t snap in half and leave the crumpled and cold eyes wide open screaming desperation through glass."